I remember, at my first job, I was awarded with some honor that looked so sublime that I felt like offering few of my colleagues a lunch. It was an opportunity on my side to open-up with them a bit. So, we went to McDonald’s (imagine that) and ordered stuff. While we waited for things to get ready, we needed an icebreaker. So, we started with saying things we like about everyone of us. It felt so cheesy. I am sure we later felt awkward about that. Even one of them said: “What was that?”.

Now here, the world keeps opening up to me every second. But there is this thing I failed to notice and which is practiced so religiously. The almost same thing: talking good about self. Now I feel this very much since I realized it. People around me when sit together, talk on same pattern: me and no one else. Some topic comes up and everyone, so goddamn eagerly, wants to express himself. And without listening and paying attention to other. Like, when one is speaking, no one is listening. All the listeners are busy rephrasing their opinions in their brains. And the speaker himself is so goddamn happy to get a chance to speak. It feels to him like speaking on TV to a billion viewers. Often, listeners even start doing something else but speaker keeps speaking. And when it’s the turn of a listener to speak, the just-a-second-before speaker also becomes one of the just-a-second-before listeners. Isn’t this crazy? Why on earth everybody wants to speak when nobody wants to listen? Why there is no one who can listen and perceive? Why don’t we have silent thinkers?

I read somewhere that the time you are speaking is the time you are not thinking. If I convert just what everybody around me has to say into words, it might fill a few hundreds of libraries of congress. This is what the blogs are for: talk about yourself and keep talking until you hate yourself for getting all of your attention. But some never get tired, some like me.